i still miss you

i dreamt of Garfield last night...i can't remember the details but i felt warm and happy in my dreams....holding and cradling him...smelling his stinky paws and cold nose...

i wish it's wasn't a dream at all...and i hate waking up after that...

Goodbye, for now

The news i dreaded most came through this morning, Ah Meow has passed on peacefully last night at 8pm.

Everyone will say it's ok that she has gone peacefully, she has stayed with us long enough or she's just a cat etc. It's never that kind of questions that will make me cry for them, i just felt that they are not loved much enough and live the life they should deserve.

I still regret leaving the house with my belongings when i got married 7 years ago, it's like abandoning your kids and yet i can't bring them (4 to be exact) with me as Hub had a terrible sensitive nose. Till now he still get sinus and bad flu whenever he steps in to my mum's place.

Only God knows how heavy my guilt is and how much i love them. Caging them at home alone does not mean love. If i have the ability, i'll give them a better life.

I'm the only person who initiated the vaccination jabs, bathe them, clean their ears, cut their nails, gave them supplements with Omega 3 oil, fed them with chicken breast. But all these actions are still not enough to cure the guilt i had it for years. Everytime after visiting them, my heart weighed heavily...

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Ah Meow

I am sorry that i can't be with you when you left.

You know how much all these mean to me.

Thank you for the joy all these years. Thank you for accompanying me while i finished my shorthand homework and by sleeping on my textbooks. Thank you for sleeping close to me on my pillow when i'm alone in the house. Thank you for being the only cat who will settle your 'business' in the toilet.

Thank you for your unique character and your constant requests for us to pat you hard on your back (so sadist right), i remember how you luv it when i pat it hard, sometimes a little too hard and you will give me a warning bite. Ouch!! I still love you even with your obessive licking and throwing out fur ball in the end. These are the memories that make me laugh and cry when i sat in my kitchen looking at your photo yesterday.

Thank you for changing my mind on cats and realising the best things about loving a pet. i hope i have done it with you. i'll treasure all the good memories we have. I hope God will put you in his safe arms at his paradise and i'm sure we'll meet again one day. In the meantime, please keep the rest of the clan safe and healthy.

I miss you, Jackie & Garfield. How i wish i'm back to the days when we first met, first played, first kissed........

The weird thing about human is that they regret only after the joy that has been taken from them...and they never learn.....

Luv, jie

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Be strong...

My mum told me today that ah meow is very sick, in fact, she's not sure whether our cat can pull through this sickness. She didn't really say what happened just that ah meow constantly struggles to breathe. And the major upgrading of the whole block (noise/dust) will not help her current condition. Sharks!!!

OMG i can't imagine another of my cat passing on especially after Garfield's incident last year. In fact, ah meow is the first cat who changed my thinking and liking to the feline species, i used to hate cats, really! She has been with us for about 15 years. Although she's first cat in our family, she didnt get the same kind love we showered on the rest of the clan.

Firstly, ah meow is really a clingy cat. She needs her daily stroking irregardless where you are, on the chair, dining table, even lying on your chest when you are sleep, very manja. Secondly, she's a fiesty cat! Sometimes she'll secretly bite our toes and ran away when we are sleeping. Even when other cats started to come into our family, she will never let her guard down. Thirdly, she don't like to join the clan. She's a loner but she has her own good qualities. In fact she love to purr loudly while giving you a mini massage on your chest (imagine a little cat dance) and she's the only one who will respond when called.

Mum didn't want to bring her to the vet since it's expensive, we spent more than $1k on Garfield and the doc even misdiagnosed the illness. I am worried and wish i can go down to visit her but mum said it's quite noisy and dusty at her place because of the upgrading.

I really hope she can pull thru this time. . . . if she still not well next week, i might want to bring her to the vet....

Surprise!!!

At 3pm
My phone rang, it's my receptionist:

R: You have a flower bouquet here, do you want to collect or ask the man to send it down?

Me: Are you sure?? There are many Sharon(s) here.

R: Are you Sharon Txx Cxxxx Cxxxx and your mobile no 9xxxxxxxx??

Me: Yes! But who will send it to me?? (*still in doubt*), what occasion ah?

When i got the bouquet 5 mins later, i saw the note on the card and can't stop smiling....

A lovely surprise from my man, i didn't expect to make it up...a month later!! Seriously, i don't fancy flowers as they are costly and wither fast, i usually prefer to be treated to a nice dinner or given a nice present. But i kinda like this surprise this time, after the last bouquet given 4 years ago (though it's my own confession that i don't like bouquet).

Woman will be woman, we are contradicting in nature, don't we?? Or just me?? Hee...i won't mind such romantic gesture once in a while.

Thank you, my man...for making my day...for reminding me that we still have that passionate love even after 13 years together...for being such a sweetheart with those words...i'm really touched beyond words...

just try not to make me angry that often ok???

Last but not least....i want to post a super cute photo of my gal..who has inherited the vain-ness genes from us...

Don't she look like Twiggy?? hee...

mojo down

i'm having a withdraw symptom in blogging...so lazy...so lazy to even switch on e plug and do some typing...if only i do all these in office, i wld have an entry every day...

i'm busier at home than at work...so u see....anyway so much to list down..so little time..

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till the blogging mojo returns..