still hangin on...for now

i believed when people said God made things happen for a reason. At least that's the only hope i have for hanging on and to stay brave and positive amid bad consequences.

i believed things will be better in time to come, if HE wishes.

i believed when God give you a handsome bonus, HE'll also test your faith and kindness. To choose between money or kinship, to be stingy or generous, to be humble or arrogant.

today i felt extremely emo, especially visiting my father-in-law at the hospital. To see his sad face and teary eyes everytime we leave his ward really breaks my heart. Nobody deserves to suffer, to be left alone in the ward. No more tv, no more mobility and ability to do what he wants.

perhaps too many things have happened to me and i can no longer stay positive and strong. i felt my heart tightened everytime i think about all the problems that have occurred. I even felt nauseous and giddy when i tries to brush those problems away, for a sec. Call it coincidence, i know HE is testing me.

My transfer to Business Development Department has been confirmed. Going to a totally new area scares me, even though i know i'll be able to sail it through but will definitely takes months for the new experience and people. Even though it's still the same firm but i'm intruding into a new terrority. On this coming Monday, i'll be no 'labelled' as executive secretary anymore and now will be as BD Assistant..... sigh....there goes my 11 years of experience...

Sneak preview

there are some new update at work but i won't say it until it has been confirmed...definitely something new and hopefully better...


my new house are already 30% done, the carpentry works will be up next week and tomorrow the parquet in the rooms are getting their 'scrubs'.

My master bedroom bathroom wall

New parquet design