Goodbye, for now

The news i dreaded most came through this morning, Ah Meow has passed on peacefully last night at 8pm.

Everyone will say it's ok that she has gone peacefully, she has stayed with us long enough or she's just a cat etc. It's never that kind of questions that will make me cry for them, i just felt that they are not loved much enough and live the life they should deserve.

I still regret leaving the house with my belongings when i got married 7 years ago, it's like abandoning your kids and yet i can't bring them (4 to be exact) with me as Hub had a terrible sensitive nose. Till now he still get sinus and bad flu whenever he steps in to my mum's place.

Only God knows how heavy my guilt is and how much i love them. Caging them at home alone does not mean love. If i have the ability, i'll give them a better life.

I'm the only person who initiated the vaccination jabs, bathe them, clean their ears, cut their nails, gave them supplements with Omega 3 oil, fed them with chicken breast. But all these actions are still not enough to cure the guilt i had it for years. Everytime after visiting them, my heart weighed heavily...

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Ah Meow

I am sorry that i can't be with you when you left.

You know how much all these mean to me.

Thank you for the joy all these years. Thank you for accompanying me while i finished my shorthand homework and by sleeping on my textbooks. Thank you for sleeping close to me on my pillow when i'm alone in the house. Thank you for being the only cat who will settle your 'business' in the toilet.

Thank you for your unique character and your constant requests for us to pat you hard on your back (so sadist right), i remember how you luv it when i pat it hard, sometimes a little too hard and you will give me a warning bite. Ouch!! I still love you even with your obessive licking and throwing out fur ball in the end. These are the memories that make me laugh and cry when i sat in my kitchen looking at your photo yesterday.

Thank you for changing my mind on cats and realising the best things about loving a pet. i hope i have done it with you. i'll treasure all the good memories we have. I hope God will put you in his safe arms at his paradise and i'm sure we'll meet again one day. In the meantime, please keep the rest of the clan safe and healthy.

I miss you, Jackie & Garfield. How i wish i'm back to the days when we first met, first played, first kissed........

The weird thing about human is that they regret only after the joy that has been taken from them...and they never learn.....

Luv, jie

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